I am writing this...but there are people out there who feels the same....and needs to feel the same.....
i walk alone a lot.....i talk to myself in mind.......ask questions.... analyze things.....look for answers.. I remember some moments....i remember one moment and many like this where i had nothing to think about....i got tired of asking questions....Sometime I stand somewhere...looking at the surroundings where, someone is enjoying life with things that eventually harms them back....some are romancing where probably they end up breaking up one day....some are minding their own business.....some are doing nothing....some are frustrated .... some are fighting...and some are probably looking at everything and thinking like me....I am away from home....only way my family knows about me is by phone. I think sometime...if ... I receive a sudden death(not expecting any right now).....what is the situation there?...only change that happens is the road may receive certain color,....a little "what happened there?" questioning and the situation is back to as it was before me. I think deeply....the only people who gets hurt is my parents. No one cares....no one wants to care....no one dares to care....I may receive " he was a good guy" no matter how bad i was...unless i am like hitlar. Our existence is two years max for family(except parents)....2 months maximum for normal friends.....2 days maximum for the people who knew us and 2 hours max for the people who only saw us after/just before we die.. ...I ask myself...Why we fight.?..or take out our ego on someone? ..Why we are proud?.... When we die...who is going to care? ...No one except 2-3 people.We are so small in this huge world...we are like ants....and we have egos like elephants..I laugh inside my mind....seeing people becoming selfish....stuck on silly ideas....and feel bad too..because some of them are people whom i care about.Ask questions to yourself....who is your real well wisher? 1) the one who calls you only when he/she needs you....or 2)the one who calls you for no reason just to ask you how you are doing?....1) the one who talks to you when he/she needs some time pass or good time or 2) the one who wants to know whats bothering you inside? ...Today Both second options are almost invalid...the one who calls you for no reason is usually the irritating person.....and both option 1)s are nice friends. The world around us becoming so bad that it almost ends the positive attitude. Fun life becomes priority and Fair and clean life becomes old fashioned .Still.. the end, we are all Ash or soil....and eventually flow with air or mud. "I have no time....i am busy with work"....this two lines means "I have no time for you"...but when you are needed...The "busy with work" person will call you many times in their "no time" schedule.There are some people...probably very few who will call or text you in their busy schedule...and they will probably never call you in your busy schedule for their interest unless its urgent...and they have no choice.I lost people because of me...specially one person who used to care...i can give reason that i too had bad moments on that time...but today..i know..that was just stupidity. I know we will keep meeting people....keep having better moments....but i know now...we will never meet those or anyone like those people who really cared. Family, Love , Friendship ....everything is eventually family if they are true....and nothing is ever like family.They will look at infinity after I am long gone and think..."my name...." and somewhere in the sky (or hell) i will smile....know that I achieved something.
i walk alone a lot.....i talk to myself in mind.......ask questions.... analyze things.....look for answers.. I remember some moments....i remember one moment and many like this where i had nothing to think about....i got tired of asking questions....Sometime I stand somewhere...looking at the surroundings where, someone is enjoying life with things that eventually harms them back....some are romancing where probably they end up breaking up one day....some are minding their own business.....some are doing nothing....some are frustrated .... some are fighting...and some are probably looking at everything and thinking like me....I am away from home....only way my family knows about me is by phone. I think sometime...if ... I receive a sudden death(not expecting any right now).....what is the situation there?...only change that happens is the road may receive certain color,....a little "what happened there?" questioning and the situation is back to as it was before me. I think deeply....the only people who gets hurt is my parents. No one cares....no one wants to care....no one dares to care....I may receive " he was a good guy" no matter how bad i was...unless i am like hitlar. Our existence is two years max for family(except parents)....2 months maximum for normal friends.....2 days maximum for the people who knew us and 2 hours max for the people who only saw us after/just before we die.. ...I ask myself...Why we fight.?..or take out our ego on someone? ..Why we are proud?.... When we die...who is going to care? ...No one except 2-3 people.We are so small in this huge world...we are like ants....and we have egos like elephants..I laugh inside my mind....seeing people becoming selfish....stuck on silly ideas....and feel bad too..because some of them are people whom i care about.Ask questions to yourself....who is your real well wisher? 1) the one who calls you only when he/she needs you....or 2)the one who calls you for no reason just to ask you how you are doing?....1) the one who talks to you when he/she needs some time pass or good time or 2) the one who wants to know whats bothering you inside? ...Today Both second options are almost invalid...the one who calls you for no reason is usually the irritating person.....and both option 1)s are nice friends. The world around us becoming so bad that it almost ends the positive attitude. Fun life becomes priority and Fair and clean life becomes old fashioned .Still.. the end, we are all Ash or soil....and eventually flow with air or mud. "I have no time....i am busy with work"....this two lines means "I have no time for you"...but when you are needed...The "busy with work" person will call you many times in their "no time" schedule.There are some people...probably very few who will call or text you in their busy schedule...and they will probably never call you in your busy schedule for their interest unless its urgent...and they have no choice.I lost people because of me...specially one person who used to care...i can give reason that i too had bad moments on that time...but today..i know..that was just stupidity. I know we will keep meeting people....keep having better moments....but i know now...we will never meet those or anyone like those people who really cared. Family, Love , Friendship ....everything is eventually family if they are true....and nothing is ever like family.They will look at infinity after I am long gone and think..."my name...." and somewhere in the sky (or hell) i will smile....know that I achieved something.
