Bad mood......perfect time to break relationships...

  Title of the post says it all.....most relationships degrades just because of mood...and we realize and regret it later. Here comes my experience...I had one good friend.....one day i had a really bad mood...and i was walking with one of my friends...that friend was talking to her on phone...
she wanted to talk to me...with my bad mood...i said that i don't want to talk..It was rude ..and she heard that.Within that 5-9 seconds of time our friendship degraded.It was a long time ago...around 6 years has passed since...she is still my friend...but i could not restore the friendship i had with her before that 8-9 seconds..no matter how hard i tried.Same thing happened again this year..but this time i am the one who got victimized...and i understood the exact feeling my friend might have faced 6 years ago...again. 
  Some feelings are very strong....but they have some serious weak points...and we sometime unknowingly hit that weak point. Once got hit...those feelings breaks like glass no matter how strong the relationship is...and we may join the pieces...but they will never be the same again. Since when i lost that friendship i have become very careful while talking to people...specially when i am in a bad mood. But it is not easy to control and stop your negative energy which is originated in your bad mood from coming out of your mouth or behaviour.It is better not interact with anyone while in a bad or irritated mod...or we may end up breaking something precious. 
  So...mood can be changed...but sometime relationships can't.....So why give energy to mood ?  :) 

Broken Dream.....a negative thing ?

  Once i told a friend of mine...if you have a dream(must not something impossible like getting super power..) Stick with it and be positive... After one month he shouted at me.." i was positive....nothing happened....your method is nothing but waste.." ..he still yells at me the same line.. I thought he should have patient for more time.. Almost one and half years ago...I had a dream it was a dream of lifetime....but it broke like hell...and made me think again...was my friend right?...am i wrong about being positive?...My heart says yes sometimes....but in this matter i like my brains opinion..which is "NO...you are NOT wrong about being positive.." 
  What makes us negative about life ?....broken dreams are one of the reasons....our heart never accepts that what it desired is not ok to get...heart become negative about life...and says one thing time to time..." life is so unfair...." 
 Theoretical physics says that the basic form of everything is vibration...starting from your thoughts to you.I have my own theory on that...every type of people is different vibration combination....so their dreams are in same frequency.Like a puzzle only those dream will combine to you which are perfect match to your frequency. Some dreams really seems like we are nothing without them...but when they kick us away from them...we feel bad,..sad,....and that effects our relations..works.
  So...what is the solution? Only one solution is there if you are an emotional person....forget permanently..and of course this is one of the hardest task to deal with...and it will take time...but remembering a dream like that we only make ourself miserable...and if you are good....you definitely don't deserve that. So think good about yourself...be with good friends if you have any...and if you don't have any then keep yourself busy with creative things...or things you love to do...(WARNING: DO NOT go for alcohol for temporary removal of sad mind.).We can have only ONE goal....and ultimate dream. Without this dream other dreams are so useless. Once we work with full heart for our ultimate dream..and make it come true...you will have to ultimate happiness.So don't divide your heart on other dreams....keep it together and go with full force for your Dream.But it doesn't mean that you must become selfish...Selfish nature is one of the most negative natures in most cases.Keep your heart reserved for your ultimate dream...fill your heart with positive energy by doing positive things for yourself and others...keep away from dreams that MAY make you negative about life because that MAY delay your ultimate goal...why take the "may" risk..right?
    I have dreams that never came true.....but i had only two of them.....one is almost forgotten since i realized that that dream would have made me someone else...that dream was to study Physics. Second is also on its way to past...and I am on my way to my ultimate dream ..which is slowly coming true :)

Bubbles of thoughts...More bubbles...

A old memory just popped up....i was in college back then..and i had a classmate...with a long name...starts with A...and ends with A. he did not look too friendly...but he was opposite in nature from his looks.He was very friendly and always wanted to be a friend.He never had a group in college...some students even insulted him...he never felt bad....his eyes were always bright with a friendly feeling..and he used to smile a lot. One day i started noticing his absence in class...and i came to know that he died....and i was in shock when i heard that how he died(not going to explain because it was tragic)...Today we may think that he might be a good friend....but no matter how deep we think...how much we feel bad about not having him around...he will not get back to us again. 
  We normally make two simple mistakes...one is fail to recognize who really feels for us.....another one is we fail to recognize the difference between real and fake emotions. 
  Till date, from my experience...some people has the light of too much attention on their eyes which makes them blind till the light goes and the dark comes out...(i have seen one example in my institute..and one in my roommate's office few days ago.)..and most of them are girls.
  Some wise person said " we don't feel the lose until something is lost" ....ah...i made this line in my style...but meaning is the same what that person said. We question everyone but ourselves...and we are always right about us. I used to be like this...but life broke me and fixed me in a proper way...but i lost some good people on my way. ...and losing people is much more painful than any pain. Its true...sometime it takes a lifetime to forget someone. i still remember that guy...and i clearly remember the look in his eyes....and i am sure that this post is going to be valid till the day of my death....

borrowed positive lines : 2

 These are NOT my lines...but these are my thoughts ....
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone(I really don't wanna try that again....it is tougher than anything..).   Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. (I totally feel what he meant by this line... and experiencing that too.)  May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.   Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.(How True  :) )  Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.  

                          (Cradit goes to Ujjal , he wrote these lines which i truly believe...)

A day to remember...

  Date:...14- early 15 September....Time : from 3 pm to 1-2 am...   i went to someplace far from my place...why i was there..thats kinda personal so i can't write that here.While i was waiting for bus(during my return)...i saw the clock...it was almost 9pm...i was little worried because i was visiting that place for the third time..first time was almost 1 year back...so i decided to stop one auto rickshaw .Normally many auto rickshaw drivers don't have good name in my city...so i usually don't try my luck with them specially when i am in a place where i know a few roads only. I stopped one auto rickshaw and sit there with a little worried mind...i was asking him about bus stops because i did not know any in that area. We don't get proper info from an auto rickshaw driver about bus here....bad for business for them.But this person who is around 55-60 years old asked me if it was urgent...i said no...but my questions for bus was showing a different situation.He knew that I have no idea about any of the bus stops in that area..although i remember one main bus stop but did not know its name...it visually situated in my memory. He stopped his vehicle in a auto stand and told me that i can get a bus to my destination from there..and i paid the fair.I waited a little....but did not get any bus...that auto rickshaw was still there....so i returned to him and asked the name of that place...he told me..and his vehicle and looking at the incoming buses.He probably thought that i was worried...so he suddenly said"come ..i will take you to the main bus stop nearby".One think i have noticed in this city that that rickshaw driver never forget to run the meter....but this person did not start his meter..and i don't think he forgot to do that.Finally he took me to the nearby bus stop..and i saw that it is the same bus stop i remember from my last journey.i said thanks to him..and gave him some extra money for his help... This is not a big incident...but it made me really happy...and washed all my tension i had before i got in the rickshaw.. I think...doing something for someone is really an amazing feeling...that Person did not if i am a good guy or a bad guy...but he felt my worry. But"doing something for someone" feeling got me into a totally different situation when i got into my institute at night....that situation is a result of something good i had done for someone on New years eve 2012.....but thats another story.  I will always remember this 10-11 hours because i have experienced....done....and felt some different and amazing  things i had never experienced..did or felt before in my life... 

Smile part 1

i meet one guy with a smile selling books ,doing night shift to get a promotion when i was returning home around 11pm..i had a stomach ache and i was tired...but i could not tell him anything roughly....i realized again that i am more happier than many people...at least i dont have to wear a fake smile every time i meet a stranger ...
 

Contrast 2 : Road to Happiness

                               Road to Happiness...

                                          Something tells me....

                                                Road to happiness....

                                                       The path we travel......

                                                                While someone cries.....

                                                                While someone hugs pain....

                                                                While someone waits.....

                                                                      ....but we walk.....

                                                       The path when we walk in......

                                                                While someone smiles....

                                                                While someone celebrates.....

                                                                While someone is in peace........

                                                                     ....We still walk.....

                                                                          We walk fighting pain....

                                                                            We walk fighting us.....

                                                      The path we want to travel......

                                                             By smashing  someone's heart.....

                                                                   kicking someone's  trust........

                                                             By making someone smile.....

                                                                   giving someone life....

                                                                         Lies ahead.......

                                                                               we found it......

                                                      At the end of the road....

                                                           when we look away from us.....

                                                                do we really see happiness ? ..

                                                                      or ...

                                                                we took the wrong path..... ?

                                            Something tells me....

                                                        while we pursuit happiness......

                                                              it waits to be found....

                                                        The path we need.......

                                                              which ends in happiness....

                                                                     is world road....

                                                                          which starts and ends....

                                                                                Within Us....

                                              All the way we have traveled.....

                                                          lead us to us....

                                            Something tells me...

                                                          Happiness is Us.... :)

         

                

   

                                                                   

                                   

Contrast 1 : Pain

                              Pain.....

    I am not a poet....
       I only arrange lines like a poem....
          Ask me what pain is......
          Pain is a race....
                pain chases us...
               we pursuit happiness...   
         Pain is art...
                 an art of suffering....
                 an art of the unwanted... 
            "I am good"....
                say this ..
                while dwelling with pain....
         Pain makes us actors...
                 while we suffer inside ...
                 while we cry inside....
                     showing a fake smile....
                     wearing a mask......
        Pain is a curse or illusion ?...
        Pain is a weapon....
                 against our heart....
                 with which we fight....
                         everyday.....   
       Pain breaks our heart....
                 so that...
                We can have a stronger one...
       Imagination...which pain is not....
       Pain is us....
                but we are not pain....
             Dig your heart....
                 pain lives deep down there...
                         love is pain...
                         trust is pain....
                         honesty is pain......
                         Max Payne is pain..... (Max Payne is a videogame )
                  An injury is really pain ?
                         don't you think....
                                a broken heart hurts more?
                  Sleepless nights are pain.....
                  Tears are pain.....
           Death is not pain....
                   but....
                         waiting for death is... 
          Pain is hope....
                     hope for end of pain....
                              hope for a smile....without pain..