Bubbles......TOO LATE..

  I remember the day i was sitting with a friend and discussing many things....it was Oct 2012.One topic came up...I have to give him credits for that because he brought that up.
Lets go back to our childhood....i remember elders played with little kids one common game."catch the finger". They used to tell us showing one of their moving finger that "this is a fish, catch it little one"..when we try to catch it they hid the finger and we catch a different finger..then they used to say"too late....you caught a frog".I remember this now and think.....how big that "Too Late" got now.I see it everywhere now a days...but the bad thing about it is when "Too Late" happens...its really too late to do anything about it.
  Most regret comes from relationships ...specially friendship and love,as a result of "too late".I felt it badly when i went home.In my life there will be no more"too late"...i found its cure for me....I saw it in others.Examples ? ..sure...
 Three friends....from childhood they studied together till 10th standard...they lives in the same area...they used to discuss and share everything......till one of them got into relationship.I admit...when you are in a relationship you have to give more preference to the person you are in relationship with..because he/she will be..or from today's point of view...may be your life partner.But none of this does not means that your friends has no value in your life anymore.So that friend leaves his close friends who happens to be his well-wishers...and limits their connection to"hi-hello-bye"level..and of course he also did some un-friendly things to them.His friends got hurt...lost their feelings for him after they tried to repair the damage.That two friends are my friends too...one told me "I used to be his best buddy....and he did this to me,when he will need me one day...it will be too late for him"
 And in case of love...same thing happens.
It is not easy to gain  unconditional feelings...but easy to loose...and when lost it is definitely too late.
We may get a different bus if we miss one...we may get a different job if you miss one because of too late...but we will never get a true friend or love if we loose one.
Whatever the reason is...always analyze every reason till you fell like keeping out or kicking out someone from your life, from your heart. If we leave people because of look...or wealth...we will make total fool of ourselves. So what are you thinking? ....of not thinking anything...think before it is too late.
Peace and love :)  <3

Awesomeness.... 1

Being awesome does not means that We have to be like Barney Stinson....Being awesome is all about appreciating yourself as you are..with all the good and awesomeness in you. Awesomeness can be your music...your dance..your drawing...your jokes...your smile....or  can be  anything you-love-to-do....
You think you are awesome..then you are awesome...you don't need your friends or anyone in this world to tell you that...
 

Borrowed but true words of my life....

 I saw the following lines in a Facebook post and found myself :-

 The Ones who love you will never leave you...
 Even if there are hundred reasons to give up....
 They will find one reason to hold on...♡

 I can't believe that I am actually doing this.....even after I got so many reasons to leave....
 I can only hope that that I will always have one reason to hold on.....

borrowed favorite lines : 1

 "We Come to love not by finding the perfect person,but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
                                                                                                                                         ~ A. Jolie

  The line is so true that i could not stop myself from adding it in my blog....... and this is one of the true story of my life too :)

Bad mood......perfect time to break relationships...

  Title of the post says it all.....most relationships degrades just because of mood...and we realize and regret it later. Here comes my experience...I had one good friend.....one day i had a really bad mood...and i was walking with one of my friends...that friend was talking to her on phone...
she wanted to talk to me...with my bad mood...i said that i don't want to talk..It was rude ..and she heard that.Within that 5-9 seconds of time our friendship degraded.It was a long time ago...around 6 years has passed since...she is still my friend...but i could not restore the friendship i had with her before that 8-9 seconds..no matter how hard i tried.Same thing happened again this year..but this time i am the one who got victimized...and i understood the exact feeling my friend might have faced 6 years ago...again. 
  Some feelings are very strong....but they have some serious weak points...and we sometime unknowingly hit that weak point. Once got hit...those feelings breaks like glass no matter how strong the relationship is...and we may join the pieces...but they will never be the same again. Since when i lost that friendship i have become very careful while talking to people...specially when i am in a bad mood. But it is not easy to control and stop your negative energy which is originated in your bad mood from coming out of your mouth or behaviour.It is better not interact with anyone while in a bad or irritated mod...or we may end up breaking something precious. 
  So...mood can be changed...but sometime relationships can't.....So why give energy to mood ?  :) 

Broken Dream.....a negative thing ?

  Once i told a friend of mine...if you have a dream(must not something impossible like getting super power..) Stick with it and be positive... After one month he shouted at me.." i was positive....nothing happened....your method is nothing but waste.." ..he still yells at me the same line.. I thought he should have patient for more time.. Almost one and half years ago...I had a dream it was a dream of lifetime....but it broke like hell...and made me think again...was my friend right?...am i wrong about being positive?...My heart says yes sometimes....but in this matter i like my brains opinion..which is "NO...you are NOT wrong about being positive.." 
  What makes us negative about life ?....broken dreams are one of the reasons....our heart never accepts that what it desired is not ok to get...heart become negative about life...and says one thing time to time..." life is so unfair...." 
 Theoretical physics says that the basic form of everything is vibration...starting from your thoughts to you.I have my own theory on that...every type of people is different vibration combination....so their dreams are in same frequency.Like a puzzle only those dream will combine to you which are perfect match to your frequency. Some dreams really seems like we are nothing without them...but when they kick us away from them...we feel bad,..sad,....and that effects our relations..works.
  So...what is the solution? Only one solution is there if you are an emotional person....forget permanently..and of course this is one of the hardest task to deal with...and it will take time...but remembering a dream like that we only make ourself miserable...and if you are good....you definitely don't deserve that. So think good about yourself...be with good friends if you have any...and if you don't have any then keep yourself busy with creative things...or things you love to do...(WARNING: DO NOT go for alcohol for temporary removal of sad mind.).We can have only ONE goal....and ultimate dream. Without this dream other dreams are so useless. Once we work with full heart for our ultimate dream..and make it come true...you will have to ultimate happiness.So don't divide your heart on other dreams....keep it together and go with full force for your Dream.But it doesn't mean that you must become selfish...Selfish nature is one of the most negative natures in most cases.Keep your heart reserved for your ultimate dream...fill your heart with positive energy by doing positive things for yourself and others...keep away from dreams that MAY make you negative about life because that MAY delay your ultimate goal...why take the "may" risk..right?
    I have dreams that never came true.....but i had only two of them.....one is almost forgotten since i realized that that dream would have made me someone else...that dream was to study Physics. Second is also on its way to past...and I am on my way to my ultimate dream ..which is slowly coming true :)

Bubbles of thoughts...More bubbles...

A old memory just popped up....i was in college back then..and i had a classmate...with a long name...starts with A...and ends with A. he did not look too friendly...but he was opposite in nature from his looks.He was very friendly and always wanted to be a friend.He never had a group in college...some students even insulted him...he never felt bad....his eyes were always bright with a friendly feeling..and he used to smile a lot. One day i started noticing his absence in class...and i came to know that he died....and i was in shock when i heard that how he died(not going to explain because it was tragic)...Today we may think that he might be a good friend....but no matter how deep we think...how much we feel bad about not having him around...he will not get back to us again. 
  We normally make two simple mistakes...one is fail to recognize who really feels for us.....another one is we fail to recognize the difference between real and fake emotions. 
  Till date, from my experience...some people has the light of too much attention on their eyes which makes them blind till the light goes and the dark comes out...(i have seen one example in my institute..and one in my roommate's office few days ago.)..and most of them are girls.
  Some wise person said " we don't feel the lose until something is lost" ....ah...i made this line in my style...but meaning is the same what that person said. We question everyone but ourselves...and we are always right about us. I used to be like this...but life broke me and fixed me in a proper way...but i lost some good people on my way. ...and losing people is much more painful than any pain. Its true...sometime it takes a lifetime to forget someone. i still remember that guy...and i clearly remember the look in his eyes....and i am sure that this post is going to be valid till the day of my death....

borrowed positive lines : 2

 These are NOT my lines...but these are my thoughts ....
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone(I really don't wanna try that again....it is tougher than anything..).   Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. (I totally feel what he meant by this line... and experiencing that too.)  May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.   Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.(How True  :) )  Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.  

                          (Cradit goes to Ujjal , he wrote these lines which i truly believe...)

A day to remember...

  Date:...14- early 15 September....Time : from 3 pm to 1-2 am...   i went to someplace far from my place...why i was there..thats kinda personal so i can't write that here.While i was waiting for bus(during my return)...i saw the clock...it was almost 9pm...i was little worried because i was visiting that place for the third time..first time was almost 1 year back...so i decided to stop one auto rickshaw .Normally many auto rickshaw drivers don't have good name in my city...so i usually don't try my luck with them specially when i am in a place where i know a few roads only. I stopped one auto rickshaw and sit there with a little worried mind...i was asking him about bus stops because i did not know any in that area. We don't get proper info from an auto rickshaw driver about bus here....bad for business for them.But this person who is around 55-60 years old asked me if it was urgent...i said no...but my questions for bus was showing a different situation.He knew that I have no idea about any of the bus stops in that area..although i remember one main bus stop but did not know its name...it visually situated in my memory. He stopped his vehicle in a auto stand and told me that i can get a bus to my destination from there..and i paid the fair.I waited a little....but did not get any bus...that auto rickshaw was still there....so i returned to him and asked the name of that place...he told me..and his vehicle and looking at the incoming buses.He probably thought that i was worried...so he suddenly said"come ..i will take you to the main bus stop nearby".One think i have noticed in this city that that rickshaw driver never forget to run the meter....but this person did not start his meter..and i don't think he forgot to do that.Finally he took me to the nearby bus stop..and i saw that it is the same bus stop i remember from my last journey.i said thanks to him..and gave him some extra money for his help... This is not a big incident...but it made me really happy...and washed all my tension i had before i got in the rickshaw.. I think...doing something for someone is really an amazing feeling...that Person did not if i am a good guy or a bad guy...but he felt my worry. But"doing something for someone" feeling got me into a totally different situation when i got into my institute at night....that situation is a result of something good i had done for someone on New years eve 2012.....but thats another story.  I will always remember this 10-11 hours because i have experienced....done....and felt some different and amazing  things i had never experienced..did or felt before in my life... 

Smile part 1

i meet one guy with a smile selling books ,doing night shift to get a promotion when i was returning home around 11pm..i had a stomach ache and i was tired...but i could not tell him anything roughly....i realized again that i am more happier than many people...at least i dont have to wear a fake smile every time i meet a stranger ...
 

Contrast 2 : Road to Happiness

                               Road to Happiness...

                                          Something tells me....

                                                Road to happiness....

                                                       The path we travel......

                                                                While someone cries.....

                                                                While someone hugs pain....

                                                                While someone waits.....

                                                                      ....but we walk.....

                                                       The path when we walk in......

                                                                While someone smiles....

                                                                While someone celebrates.....

                                                                While someone is in peace........

                                                                     ....We still walk.....

                                                                          We walk fighting pain....

                                                                            We walk fighting us.....

                                                      The path we want to travel......

                                                             By smashing  someone's heart.....

                                                                   kicking someone's  trust........

                                                             By making someone smile.....

                                                                   giving someone life....

                                                                         Lies ahead.......

                                                                               we found it......

                                                      At the end of the road....

                                                           when we look away from us.....

                                                                do we really see happiness ? ..

                                                                      or ...

                                                                we took the wrong path..... ?

                                            Something tells me....

                                                        while we pursuit happiness......

                                                              it waits to be found....

                                                        The path we need.......

                                                              which ends in happiness....

                                                                     is world road....

                                                                          which starts and ends....

                                                                                Within Us....

                                              All the way we have traveled.....

                                                          lead us to us....

                                            Something tells me...

                                                          Happiness is Us.... :)

         

                

   

                                                                   

                                   

Contrast 1 : Pain

                              Pain.....

    I am not a poet....
       I only arrange lines like a poem....
          Ask me what pain is......
          Pain is a race....
                pain chases us...
               we pursuit happiness...   
         Pain is art...
                 an art of suffering....
                 an art of the unwanted... 
            "I am good"....
                say this ..
                while dwelling with pain....
         Pain makes us actors...
                 while we suffer inside ...
                 while we cry inside....
                     showing a fake smile....
                     wearing a mask......
        Pain is a curse or illusion ?...
        Pain is a weapon....
                 against our heart....
                 with which we fight....
                         everyday.....   
       Pain breaks our heart....
                 so that...
                We can have a stronger one...
       Imagination...which pain is not....
       Pain is us....
                but we are not pain....
             Dig your heart....
                 pain lives deep down there...
                         love is pain...
                         trust is pain....
                         honesty is pain......
                         Max Payne is pain..... (Max Payne is a videogame )
                  An injury is really pain ?
                         don't you think....
                                a broken heart hurts more?
                  Sleepless nights are pain.....
                  Tears are pain.....
           Death is not pain....
                   but....
                         waiting for death is... 
          Pain is hope....
                     hope for end of pain....
                              hope for a smile....without pain..
           

Bubbles of thoughts... 1

 Sometime i get confused.....when i try to understand people,..but what i commonly observe is that people hide themselves.I was sitting in backstage few days ago and listening to the voices coming from stage....one bubble came to my mind...Are we the same people we think we are?..or we are someone else.I thought i know myself...but some situation tells that maybe some areas are still dark.People DO NOT change....they just show their true colors when time comes.Most of us is hidden from us...how can we be so sure that we know our good friends too well ? I know i don't...because my childhood friends showed me their true color(not necessarily in negative way..)...and they still think that they haven't changed a bit.Faith,trust and hope are good and equally bad thing....because they can build you or can destroy us totally....change(in other's eye) plays the greatest role in this. 

                                                                                               to be continued.....

 

 

We are slaves....my way of breaking that habit...

  We definitely don't like slavery.....Do we ? We don't always like to take orders from others...what if i tell you that most of us are slaves....We are saves of our minds....our mind and emotions controls us most of the time.One of my teachers said...brain doesn't have a brain...so we have tell it which way to think.
   Sometime we are stuck in something that our mind believes....and we don't want to get out of that belief.We think other than that thought everything is impossible..Edison would have given up on his light bulb if he let his brain decide what to do...".

    "Thats not possible...i know that"..Really?....i have seen many people who realized later and told me.."damn...i thought it was impossible"...Once my dad used to say to me" you are imagining too much...you will never made it out there.."... Now my dad says"I never thought could do it."..when it comes to my line of work..So we don't really know...do we? We just think we know...and don't care what other thinks or know.It is possible that you are not seeing something that someone else sees about you...I always listen to others opinion about me...this way i can correct my beliefs.My teacher's influence on me makes me bring his concept...he told us(i am not using exact words..but the meaning is same)"whats negative in our minds, like we can't...not possible...etc. are just something we believe...but the outside world is not like that.We will never know what we can't do or what is not possible until we go out there and try it.I have loads of example around me...A thinks that he will never stop thinking about his ex...B thinks he is very unlucky....C thinks nothing good is going to happen in her department....D thinks this relationship is impossible...E thinks she can't be positive every time....F thinks he is a failure and he will never get success....thinks... thinks... thinks....every-one only thinks...and they also thinks that what they think is true and they think they know that..Every thinking i mentioned above are really happening in real life with real people i know...and there are lots of other A,B,C,D,E,F are out there..I think thats why great people told us to follow our heart...one awesome Indian film 3 Idiots and a Hollywood film October sky made my belief very strong on that...I still watch this two films when i feel down on achieving something and remind this meaning of one dialogue from 3 Idiots "follow your heart..if you don't want to regret one day...if heart is afraid...say All is Well..." This is true in goal...love ..everything. I myself said to my heart number of times "all is well"(Not the exact lines...but meaning is the same) when i felt down on some serious situation going on in my life.In case of the negative feelings about ourselves (exclude me....i don't belong that club anymore...)..i guess most of that feeling comes from our pasts,..i can tell...bad days comes to our life to make us realize the value of good time.Failure in love comes to realize the value of love and the intensity of pain so that we can understand other's love and pain.Failure is exam comes with the feeling of failures so that we don't disrespect them just because they are failures without knowing the proper reason behind....and so on.The people who are concern about us,usually irritates us with their concern...irritation is in our mind..so usually we get angry on them because mind is telling us that.If only once we feel from heart we will see their love for us and never feel irritated.I usually trust my heart....and use my mind with as well...but i never let my mind control me.I always think that "what if i am wrong..? " when any negative feeling influences my mind..Just because i think like that ,i am still working on something which i might have left long time ago...which i thought of leaving 5-6 times this year.
  It is not easy to let go of our thoughts and try something we think we can't...But "we can't "..."Thats Impossible"...are just today or i may say, at this very moment when they comes to your mind...Don't hold them off  for the future...because you will never know what they are stopping you from...
   Things don't just happens...they happens for a reason....we need think about the reason...From the experience of many people..i have learned that most of the things we are sure about are only in our minds..but in reality most of them are just some imaginary picture.It took me more than 6 years to find my line of work...and 8 years to set up my goal(i just realized that it took same time to find another Goal of mine). Today i  don't think the word impossible(i only think I-m-possible) for the things i want..i know. Somethings may appear impossible NOW...but i never know what the future holds if i give up.In case of my goals...I have came too  far to give up on them..so i am going to try again and again.
   Well...if you still think "thats not possible"...or you "can't do it"...then you are really in control of your mind...sometime thats necessary..but every  time you do that you may loose some good moment..or some good people forever.

Independence day feelings....

  I woke up early today...date 15 Aug 2012,..today is India's Independence day.... old patriotic songs are floating in the air one by one..probably coming from the barber shop nearby..that barber knows how to spread the feeling...although i have never been to his shop..i have noticed his activities.Those old songs are so attractive that any Indian(Sorry guys...i have to stick on Indian feeling today)will feel like doing something for India..which obviously vanishes when 15Aug is over.I have been listening tho those songs since i woke up...and every song tells brings a patriotic feeling in heart....BUT...ask anyone except a politician from the ruling party...you will get only one feeling..."India is going down". Today Indian economy has become diamond shaped...Rich in the top...middle class in the middle and poor in the bottom.What did we achieve after the British left? Our leaders divided the country first...then they divided the people in terms of official cast system.Then corruption continues in full swing.This is our India now where the person who protests against corruption gets arrested and killer minister roams freely. When Aamir Khan points out the faults in various areas in our system...people tries to find out a way to stop him.

 Netajis Azad Hind Fauj fought against British Empire for India...almost all of them were POWs of WW2..did they really needed that fight...but they did that just for their country.Khudiram Bose died for this country at the age of 18...Bhagat Singh at the age of 23..no one remembers their sacrifice and gives them proper respect.All the unknown freedom fighters who died in cellular jail and viper island...they all would have thought.."we might die...but our country will be free"...they were dreaming of a free and awesome India....Did their dream came true? How many Indians paid respect to Captain Lakshmi of Azad Hind Fauj who died just 2 days ago(13 August 2012)...she was a Doc...she had a nice life...why did she fought for freedom..staying in the jungles of North-East..? There are lots Indian freedom fighters who still lives in poverty...some of them are struggling to get their freedom-fighters pension.They probably watch the celebration of independence and think..."did we made a mistake by loving this country? " or "where did our sacrifice go?".

  Rich are getting rich...poor are remaining poor....and most of middle class is devastated by the system.No one wants to fight...their own life in more important than the country...and they are right,what did the struggling freedom fighters we see today get for sacrificing their youth for this country?But there are exceptions all around...and they need our support...we are afraid to step forward or we don't care because we have work to do..

  British has started an old game to people away from being united...game of division.Our so called leaders are still playing that.And the media who is supposed to help people does yellow press for their own profit...good example is the riots of Assam.Assam never faced any difference between any religion...but media exposed a fight between locals and illegal immigrants as a fight between religions...as a result ,North-Eastern people is being attacked in some other states now.

       I think "Indians don't need to fight with other country....because the fight with each other in terms of states,religions,casts and languages.."

 After more than 50 years after independence why we are so backward in technology and social management ?Why north-Eastern problems are still being avoided by Indian government?Why we are still using most of the laws from British era with all the loopholes?...Most importantly why we are NOT CORRECTING our mistakes ?...Do we like to get used to everything thrown to us? Some people are making a difference including politicians...these are good people,we need to follow them.I can't go out there and fight alone....we all need to go together.Otherwise after 10 years we stand in a country where we will have nothing to proud of.

  Happy Independence Day everyone...

From my life: the golden moments...why not bring them back ?

   There are two best moments I find for myself from time to time....one is to sit alone and think...and another one sit with someone close and talk....but the topic is one..the golden moments of our past.Today i sit alone and remind myself those moments  again...i am sure that most of you have been there in your past...and you always feel only good when you remember them.....Lets forget all the negative feelings...failure in love ,friendship, exam....frustration,depression....for sometime(if you are positive you can throw them away forever...)

  Remember the time of school ...when were kids ? ....Playgrounds....fights....innocent lies? Don't you feel like crying when you think about the complexity we are in now? ..no lies..i always feel this way when i remember those moments...I feel...what have we done to ourselves...what have we become..Most people thinks"if i could go back to those days..." . 

  Try to remember one single fight with someone which makes you still hate that person you fought with, when you were kids.. ..i am sure you wont remember any with hate attached with it...you will just smile genuinely and feel like meeting that person and remind him about that fight and laugh together.

  My childhood is full of golden memories....most of them i share with someone special but i can share most of them you too...because you are no different than me when we were kids..

  Now i am going back to one of my oldest memories...

  Around 1993-94...we had two groups in my class...i was the leader of one group(damn...what awesome days they were...) and other group had one leader too..We were kinda rival groups...specially the leaders..we were enemies..we almost never talked.One day we had a deadly fight..i rather call that wrestling(big fan of WWF [now WWE]at that time)...no one win though .I meet that guy after 16 years of gap in 2010 and he so happy to see me that he arranged a reunion with some of our old classmates from primary school just for me because i was leaving my state...Since then we are in touch...we are friends.We remember and laugh together reminding ourselves about the kid us.

  I remember those days when we tried to catch fish with bare hands...without fearing what other things might attack us in the water...I remember those when i climbed one tree without noticing the big caterpillars with the same color as the tree in it....I remember that day when a monkey chased me....I remember when one senior grabbed me and i almost cried...but i said my friends that it was just an acting.....Now we have grown up....but we lot our innocence...and the purely good Us ,all of us...no exceptions.The guy(Not me) who used to hate bad words(I still don't use them..)...uses bad words with every line.The guy(Not me... again) who were so innocent at that time has become a drug addict..The girl (Obviously not me :P )who used to hate alcohol and smoke...,smokes and drinks almost regularly now.We are not the innocent kids who had no negativity with them anymore...we are BIG(?) now..but are we improved as well ?

 Education is NOT the measure of improvement in human life..it the heart..and soul.

 Weren't we used to say "i don't like you "if we did not like someone?....weren't we used to say "i like you/this" if we liked something or someone.?why we can't do that now?..Think deeply...aren't we making our lives complex by ourselves?If we have a fight with someone now...can we laugh together about that fight? ...Instead a difference may come between us. Why we can't watch cartoons like before even if we like to watch them now(I still watch cartoons and read comics...and i don't care what others think)? are we too shy to do that? or we are afraid of being insulted?...Are we trying to prove that we are mature people by watching news channels and serious discussions?....Please don't kill the kid inside you...he/she is almost everything positive you get.I came to know about some actors..one of them is Oscar nominated..who still have fun like a kid...and always laughs out loud.I salute them...they are the life in "life".

  You know, i miss the old me sometime...all the negativity that came to me once had almost destroyed the old me who used to be really innocent and good and i am sure that did not only happened to me,Now i don't know who am i exactly now...but i am trying to bring the old me back by choosing the people with true heart for me..i only hope to not get hurt again and i know i will not..i trust them a lot.But it is not about me...its about us...none of us can go back to our golden past...but we CAN make our lives golden now by being positive and honest like we were once.Just remember the feelings of golden past and decide to bring them back...who says you can't...only the one who thinks he/she can't ,can't do that.

   Be a kid...i am not suggesting childish behavior because our age don't support that....but be childlike..Laugh with open heart, express your feelings with no fear, cry if you have to...but within the boundary of the people who has true feelings for you.Just remember...everyone wants to get their kid form back...most of them are afraid, shy and most of them are too proud....and those will not understand us as kids and probably will insult us.Kids does what they like...what they feel like doing...So as Dale Carnegie said 

                  "People rarely succeed unless they have fun in what they are doing."

So have fun..be a kid...and feel the success...and you don't have to say"my mind flies away to those days of our awesome childhood." because you can have it right here right now..

L ❤ve....Priority...etc..

  lets start with one guy i know, say X....he told me (He was in higher secondary level at that time) that he can do anything for his girlfriend(a very common thing to say...but some people really means it...I came to know later that X really meant it...)..I asked "what about your family? " "I can fight them for her"..he said...His family belongs to high-cast(don't ask :/ ...cast system is still a problem in India)..and hers low cast.One year later when i came in touch with this guy again he was smiling...but i knew that the smile is just a cover up.I came to know that girl dumped him because he did not get in medicine or engineering and she found a guy who was not even close to this guy from any thing ,but reacher than him.That was his first love...and he took the failure very seriously...his thriving nature was gone...but no one knew...because he never showed(I know all this because his nature is like mine and i have known him for a really long time..and still in touch..so i understand his conditions). So X went to a dangerous state of mind..i.e frustration.The guy who never smoked....started smoking(But he realized soon and stopped...Good for him) ...started behaving roughly with his family...ignoring friends because he thought that no one understood him..(In my eyes..his friends actually did not support and understand him at that..they made fun of him...he was almost all alone...I was far at that time so i wasn't much help either)...he could not tell his family because he wasn't allowed to make girlfriend at that age.This all happened because he gave no.1 priority to some outsider who could not love him unconditionally like his family.Here comes Love priority...I am not specifying anyone to give priority to ...But if(although it is the universal truth..still..) your family love you unconditionally..(In case of mothers.thats always true....so always first priority to mom,Here i am talking about the rest of family members)...think about your family with high priority.

   Now comes outside world..here we are inside a complex web..every-one good to us feel like our own(Specially when we are in high school and college)...We make friends....some of us fall in love....some of us fail in love....we forget our priority..and go for uncertain things.Most of them never lasts long..In my case...i am in touch with almost no one from high school or college...because almost none of them are seems INTERESTED. We thought(at least i thought) we will be friends forever when we were in high school and college.When i see good friendship since school or college days i feel really good...i always want to experience that friendship...i always feel like joining them..But i guess i am still not that lucky...but i am not sad about that either.It is true...we cant be true friends with everyone..mostly because of the difference in nature...but thats NOT a fixed reason though.But more the similarity we have with someone ,more we get close to them.When we see ourselves in someone...most of the time that turns out as best friends or love..we should never let them  go...because they are very hard to get, if love,... your true mirror image is only one.So priority again...will you go for those who only shows that they care...or will you stick with those who really care? Many people fooled by gifts...specially when they are expensive ones...for me the gift of true love and concern for me are the best gifts..because we can buy everything else.I choose to have those people in my life who has this two gifts for me..because i have the same for them...other things i know i can buy myself,when i need them.So one simple line...Give priority to the people true feelings for you.

   I remember once having an argument with my dad for a friend(?) just because my dad told me to give priority to my own work instead of his first(this happened almost 8-9 years ago when i was in college)...today i cant go back and say sorry to my dad....but this time when i will go home i will apologize for all of my misbehaves, just because i could not understand the priority of love in my past..it is never too late when you realize your mistakes.Now my friend X tells me if some girl he loves tells him negative things about him parents of advice him to leave his parents..he will definitely leave that girl..no matter how much he loves her...I say now he understand the priority after many years. 

  My guru Neeraj Sir has a lot of influence on me and my thinking....because what i used to think,he made it clear that i was right.He inspired me to to correct what i had done wrong...and i am going to do it if i am alive till the date i return to home...if not(in case..)...i  put that here too..

       "I am really sorry Mom,Dad and everyone who truly loves me, for each and every misbehavior,every rough word or anything that hurt you even 1%...I know you never keep those thing in your heart...but I deserve punishments for every negative thing i have done just because i did not understand the priority of love." ~Me

 

We, the failures..Is winning always necessary ?

  Failure and success are one of those which doesn't have a specific definition....What is success?....Is it passing the exam...winning a game...get a promotion....winning a lottery?...what is it ?.....Lets take some examples from the people i have seen in my life...I saw one guy who wanted to fail in exam just because he did not wanted to study that particular subject...that he took just because his parents wanted him to...If he fails that is success for him(He did not fail though...he was good i guess)..Some people wants to remain in their post and always hopes that they don't get a promotion..because promotion means more work..and less time for himself(I heard this from a bank employee)....So the success you are getting right now in others opinion may not be the success for yourself.One of my friends got high rank in high school exam....later he got selected for medical studies...and everyone thought that he is really lucky....but he said that he never wanted to study medicine....he had to go for it because his parents wanted that....i guess his parents wanted that because every one they know had thought that studying medicine is the ultimate success...Now he may have become a doc. today...but in his mind he had failed to achieve his dreams.

    Many great people were failure in their past life....some in education..some in relationships and some in love...some in everywhere.But lets not compare ourselves with them..lets start with we, the common people..I start with myself...I am a failure...I've experienced failure everywhere(except family relationships)...and i admit it.I know that all the failure i had are building the base of my ultimate success...but thats me.

  I knew someone who used to be very successful..he never failed..never got low marks..but the habit of success can be dangerous sometime..That person was very close to me...he had high dreams... his dreams also influenced me somehow to remain in the right track that i am in now.One day he failed in an important exam..which he never experienced before,he parents probably said things that were inappropriate for his mental situation at that time..But parents,they don't say that kind of things with something similar in their heart..they want us to realize that we don''t need these things...so we need to be good.I am writing with a heavy heart that he committed suicide :'( ..and i lost one of the very few people i want in my life.One guy i know had failed in love...and has become a regular alcoholic ...just to stay strong.Parents of one person i know had failed to understand their son...which made him a drug addict...There are lots of examples of failure around us....and almost 90-98% of them are NOT directly related to money or education...but effects some people severely.

   There are people who loves us unconditionally(besides our family)...but most of the time we fail to understand their depth and sincerity towards love for us..(hey its not their fault..we can't plan love..it happens)..only because most of us only cares about what we like..what we think...this happens mostly in love matters...we who don't understand are failure here. I hope i don't belong to this group of failures..and never will....because this hurts some sincere and honest heart really bad...and even may make them insensitive or negative sometime.Unfortunately i have seen this type of examples of pain too....one of my friend is among the victims..and he has slowly becoming insensitive towards a group of humans..no matter how good some of them are..

      What do i think?...i think that the only failure we experience,exist only in our minds...but the mind is the only thing which makes us human..so whats in our mind is in our lives too.Make failures the bricks of the pillar of success not brakes towards success.Keep moving until you get to hold of the hand of success...i know we will..lets use our failure as an experience for success.When i failed an exam once...i never cared , that failure has become one of the pillars of my success till now...otherwise i might be working on something i don't like,bumping my head and thinking why did not i fail when i had the chance.I failed in another thing(sorry..too personal to specify right now)...and got sad...Today i know that failure has made me not only very strong but also brought me close to the perfect moment for that thing.

  I write what i think..feel...none of these are creative result of my mind...only experiences from my life.One reason to share these...spread positivity. So be positive people....because being positive is NOT the writing from some book...it is the reason behind GOOD

L❤ve...first or true ?

         I saw this post in fb...."first love never dies...but true love can bury it alive...".

I always knew the truth of that post..but I never had the right words to tell that..I have seen seen some people who are too much attached with the feeling for first love..specially when it got away.Loosing first love hurts a lot...i know the feeling...but there is no point to carry that sorrow.Be positive about what happened...you are lucky that you lost your first love early which is going to go away anyway..(This is for those who had lost their first love..and still thinking about that lost..)....and you are saved from getting hurt more(more the duration...more the attachment)..

[.Note: this blog is about being positive....I will take out the positive from the negative...so I am going to bring negative things from reality...which we can't ignore..and should not get affected from them either..]

  Our Heart is like a men-eater tiger or a drunkard...once it tests LOVE...it desires it till we die...and it desires more love,more than ever when it looses first love....and believe me i will NOT suggest you to experience that feeling of desire..because it contains all the dangerous negative emotions..like frustration.,anger,very heavy heart...and many more....I came know from some people that desire for death is also included there sometime...DAMN!...(Desire for death....another topic to discuss..maybe some other day..)...Let me tell you one thing...your first love is NOT some girl or guy from outside..you just think that,that is your first love...in reality..our first love is our family...because we love our family..specially mom and dad long before we meet that "first love" of ours..So don't be blind...find the true love around you...If you find someone who accepts you for what you are,...he/she will be the real FIRST LOVE after your family for you....not the one who left you...and you still think her/him of your first love..you can compare that experience with a rent house  ...but you are yet to buy your FIRST own house.i like this line said by Dale Carnegie: "Feeling sorry for yourself, and your present condition, is not only a waste of energy but the worst habit you could possibly have."True Love does not has to be the first love...I KNOW it is NOT always necessary...I even say most of the time first love is never true love.Most teenagers fall is love(?)....how many of them lasts long?When we grow adult..we slowly understand love, and when we fall in love in this age...and when the love is true,we usually never giver up on that love.If you are a teenager...don't be so hard on yourself about first love...In most cases,first love...until we understand true love.
  Love is such a beautiful thing that it will give you heaven on earth...and of course you can also show you the hell on earth..I know what both feels...I always try to ignore the negative feelings...and keep the positive results.

  So lets end this post with the same line with one word in addition...

               "first love never dies...but first true love can bury it alive...".

The prequel of my story...

...This note is the prequel of two upcoming posts(and story's as well..) of mine....Both will be the most important events of my life...and both complete me.

 My blog is about being positive....so today i write about myself being positive in two similar situations in the way that they happened but totally different in nature..but don't guess the situations..that is not important... 

This is about something i want from my heart...in both situations.......

      I am using "love" instead of "like" here because anything we want from heart is love...it doesn't matter if it "something" or "someone"....I am going to use something...which normally used for anything...

     I have true LOVE and respect for only four things of my life.One of them is my well-wishers..but this post is not about them...its about two specific things of the remaining three..In your case it can be your goal...the doll you want or someone you love...can be anything..

     ook...so I wanted something from heart(In both cases)....so basically I fall in love(Don't take it literally before you read the two future posts..)....In some areas my life were never easier....so this two comes within...

So when exactly do we loose hope?....most commonly when someone says "that is NOT POSSIBLE"..or "that is a bad idea" or anything like that..right?....so lets go for the two things i love..

   Thing one: this is a serious love(again..don't take literally) of my life...I had to choose this love from some similar types which made me think if i am going for the right thing or not...So journey to decision making has ended and the straight to love journey has began. In this situation people said about me that this guy is dreaming...some said that you are flying too high....Some even advised my parents to take me to a doc...But within all these negativity i got a little hope of positivity from some people who really want me to be ME...not someone else...i had true feelings in my heart for that thing....so nothing stopped me....i finally took myself to its doorstep...i can see it...still negative things are coming..but in a different manner...different style...but universe is out there...and i have faith in God/Universe...and i can see myself with my love out there...

  Thing two: I have searched...waited....but always believed that this sincere love of mine(reminder:don't take literally..)will come to me one day or another.....So when i used to get in touch with something that might be that love i always wanted ... i had to be sure.. so i did the usual..i asked my mind..."what do you think ?"...and my mind answers"NO".... i got some straight "NO"s from my mind....till the day when i finally got "YES"....when i got yes...i understood, that "yes" has ended my journey there....But life is not that easy...because we make it complex..and i am within this unbreakable(thats what we usually think..which is not positive) complexity...so negativity has to come...and it came...and it came real bad.Sometime small things has so much power that they can break you...just because they are related to something you love...Negativity hit me heard this time...i almost thought of giving up many times...sometime i got angry..sometime very sad...And same thing happened just like before...some special people talked me out of that feeling again and again..they just said one or two lines...which was enough to get me back on track.Finally I reached its gate too...but negative responses are still in display...still coming...but i am positive about my feelings for it...if they are true they will have what they are born for...like the first thing.I asked my mind a number of times about it...the answer still "YES" even when i was within the influence of negative feelings...Now  i can see this love of mine with me too(Not literally)....along with the other one...

  See..the thing about negative response and feeling is that they are very strong because they are all around us ..with many....But positive response and feeling is like 10-20% within the common people around us so it gets less energy than the negative..So never give up on something you LOVE...level up your inner energy...and fire up your emotion...sincerity...and honesty...I am sure that they will capture your target.If your emotion,sincerity and honesty is true like your existence...you will win...if you unable to achieve your love then it is that thing that fails....not you.

    Finally....the bottom line here is NEVER GIVE UP on something that you are(iff) sure of your love for it...otherwise one day you will sit alone and think '' why did not i go for it?.."..and i know you dont want that... :)

    I am not giving any advice here....just sharing something i've experienced myself..and still experiencing ...there are more of you like me...so if this helps anyone i will be really glad.... 

           when exactly do we loose hope?....most commonly when someone says "that is NOT POSSIBLE"..right? I think that line actually continues as the following "that is not possible...at this moment...so wait for the right moment to make it possible.." ~me                                                                                                                                                                                      

    

Friendship day.....is it still a honor..?.

   "Friend"...a most commonly used word in the world....I am going to share my feelings for this topic today...It may or may not match your feelings..but everything is based on truth...

   I used to care a lot about my friends...I always gave priority to my friends....and the result today is none of them cared to keep in touch...I can tell myself"maybe they are too busy with their life.." but Instead ,i think they never understood the depth of friendship..those feelings had to die to teach me this important lesson about friendship..:- "Friendship doesn't mean friendship to many people now a days"...and its not just me..I still have the highest respect for friendship and love...but today i am very selective..because most of my feelings died....because i am afraid to get hurt again and again...you decide if that is my fault or not..

    We honor the memory of the good people who are dead....We honor friendship.... In this particular day...today, we remember our friends....What happened to the other 364 days ?

    You may think i am being negative about friendship....but accept the truth....is everyone wants to become your friend with the feeling"friendship"in their heart?....In my experience...NO...

 today there are reasons to make friends....like exchange things....possibility of profit from each others..etc etc...How many friends do you have who will tell you"no worries...i am with you.." unconditionally..? People used to celebrate this day to add one more awesome day to their friendship...now most people celebrate to remind friendship still exist...
  There are a few who has "unconditional friendship" feeling in their heart...A few will follow the follwing from heart :

  "I keep my friends as misers do their treasure, because, of all the things granted us by wisdom, none is greater or better than friendship."      - Pietro Aretino (1537) 

I truly believe what Pietro Aretino said long time age..and there are many who does too..But today when you offer friendship..people normally thinks 2 things by default..."whats is his/her motive?..and..."can he/she be a trusted?" ....why this negative feeing? Its not their fault..it is the world...and its increasing negativity.There are people who has a very friendly heart but with less friends..Why? Some of them are afraid to get hurt in friendship..some of them are already hurt..

 Friendship is dying...unless we save it with true friendship...or else one day we will celebrate this day for the memory of Friendship.Today people use the line "no time" and "everyone is busy with their own life" often..for an excuse when it comes to keep in touch with friends..don't you think that friends are part of your "own life"?...if no...I say you are among those who never respected friendship.For me friendship and love is an honor..which are way above my life...I know y'all think i am writing too much...thats because friendship has almost no value among us.I feel bad..for all those people who deserves sincere love and friendship...for those who are getting hurt just because they are honest and sincere towards friendship or love..the old me was one of them too..so i know how it feels.

     So...respect friendship....and respect those who respects friendship...no matter who they are friends with."No time"..."not possible" etc.are just something that are stuck in our brain..something WE think...thats not what the reality is .If you want your friends from heart...no matter where they are..what they are, you are always with them...same goes to love because love is part of friendship and life...Many People Give you Crying Tears And Laughing Smiles...But There Are Few People,......Who Give you..Laughing Tears And Crying Smiles Those Very Few Called FRIENDS..so forgot the commonly used line"No one cares"and start caring because there are people who truly cares about friendship..

 There are lot to write....but lets do that another time....Ending this post with of my personal fav quote...

         "Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?"~Richard Bach